Why I do not write more often…?

Reason it, rationalize it - if it isn't logical, then it is NOT true.
I carry the burden of my own expectation - I expect perfection.
I am not always true to my quest for the truth. This is no dramatic, cliched, philosophical truth that I seek… Do not mis-take it for that spiritual definition of seeking the truth. This is more a carnal, animalistic, minimal yet absolute desire to see the truths which are before my eyes - the truths that my education and knowledge prevent me from seeing.
Truth is the greatest of all morals - it is an anomaly in that shameful list - as it challenges everything else on it.