Thursday, May 29, 2008

Those Special Moments I Wanna Spend With ......

* 2AM.. Bike.. Open Road.. Person i love the most sitting pillion & hugging me...

* Midnight... Beach... walking holding hands...

* Long Drive... Mild Rain... Car... Deserted Road... Greenery around... Bryan Adams & Atif Playing on the stereo...

* Walk into a restaurant/pub with that someone special...

* Share the same drink...

* Lie on the bed looking at each others face...

* That Park Bench.. Those Stairs..

* Go on a getaway to just about anywhere in sight and spend time all alone

I just Hope... Hope tht SOMEONE comes across fast... its been a long wait now.. i do LOVE someone and i cant live without her... i just hope she realises this :(

God Gimme Serenity or Gimme Death!

Wednesday, May 28, 2008

Random Thoughts!!!

I sometimes think that living is an entirely futile exercise cause everbody who is living will die. So have the people who came before us. It is like a production factory of babies, who will undergo more or less the same phases of life and face difficulties and be happy accordingly. could I find a person or a life of a person who must have lived before me just like me, So that I could follow exactly what he did when he was successful and abstain everything that he did wrong in hhis life. I am sure many in the world must have gone by almost like me, in nature and disposition.Is life a foolish persuit or a meaningful journey. Nevertheless women are a nice thing that God made. Without them I think everthing would be lifeless!!!!!!!!!!These are some random thoughts,i am not favoring or disfavoring anyone gender, just random thoughts when my mind is empty or angry over something i dont know....

Monday, May 19, 2008

It is ok to be unsure?!?

Ironically, I am not so sure about this – the diction “After all, we are just human” just disappoints me. I mean really – pay close attention to what you are saying. Read that line again – it is merely an excuse – and a mere excuse at that. We are human – hence we are fallible, it is ok for us to do mistakes – it is ok for us to be unsure and still act upon it.
I can see the intention – the good intention of whosoever coined this phrase the first time. Must have been some “nice” soul trying to console a rather uncertain one – caring just for the moment – hoping that a bit of false comfort would be pleasant for a while – till the whimpering soul can gather momentum again.
You think I exaggerate – trust me I don’t. This is the unwritten, unrealized reasoning for a lot of our daily activities. So much so has this gotten embedded in our system that it is almost a reflex defensive thought – it is our simplest way to be mediocre. Mediocrity isn’t simply in performance – it is also in action – it is in preparation – it is in lack of truth.
Truth – as I have iterated a number of times before – is the essence of life – it is the quest of it that should keep us going – And do not settle for truth as is taught to you – you know not the validity of your learning till you experiment with them – why?! – For the exact same reason – your teachers after all, were just human.
One might argue, that such an approach will push us back in evolution – I mean after all, our forefathers have gathered billions of years worth of knowledge and pushed it down to us via means of genetics, books, stories, urban legends – you think it because you were taught to think it – by mere humans.
Challenge everything – question it all – love your values for they will keep life simple for you when you can’t take care of yourself – Abandon them, question them, when you think that you know how to think for yourself. Why do you as a human need a larger force to recognize and bow to. You – you as man have conquered the planet – you are the supreme being – collectively, you can set new standards.
It is not just the Einsteins and the Da Vinci’s of their times who have changed the course of history – We all have had roles to play – know your role and be truthful to it. Be aware – push yourself, coz when you push yourself, you push society – maybe without realizing it, you are pushing someone else. Maybe you will be father/mother to the brightest mind ever, yet he/she would end up working at Dunkin Donuts just because you were too busy mowing your lawn to tell your kids about the virtues of truth and knowledge.
You are not “merely” human – It is not ok for you to be unsure, or for you to be mediocre – because you set the benchmark for yourself – set it high – the rest of the human civilization looks upon you to.

Saturday, May 17, 2008

Why am I free falling…?

I have let myself drop - drown - it is beyond explanation - yet the simplest rationale is the most shocking.
I think I was bored - seeking a new challenge - I think I might be hurting myself for that simple reason - testing myself - testing my resolve and my strength. It is pointless since - I know I will pull through.
But wait… for once I’m unsure… Did I out-do myself this time…? Nah… I’m just hurting too much tonight.

Friday, May 16, 2008

Why I do not write more often…?

Reason it, rationalize it - if it isn't logical, then it is NOT true.
I carry the burden of my own expectation - I expect perfection.
I am not always true to my quest for the truth. This is no dramatic, cliched, philosophical truth that I seek… Do not mis-take it for that spiritual definition of seeking the truth. This is more a carnal, animalistic, minimal yet absolute desire to see the truths which are before my eyes - the truths that my education and knowledge prevent me from seeing.
Truth is the greatest of all morals - it is an anomaly in that shameful list - as it challenges everything else on it.

Thursday, May 15, 2008

Rhetorical Excess…? Subtle deception…? Fib…? All lies…!

How much can you lie - and how well can you lie…?
Can you lie well enough to live the lie - ? Can you lie so convincingly as to convince yourself - ? And can you consistently lie long enough - to genuinely forget the truth - ?
Can you lie so well - that the truth which always was and still is - can surprise you - shatter your world - can make you mourn the lie - ? Can you - ?
I can. I have.
Subtle deceptions - incomplete information - selective information - quiet influence on how to process that information - to set perceptions - to mould a perception - All lies - all brilliant…!!
Fear not to give yourself credit for it. It's just another thing you are good at.

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

Conscience… great word… great excuse…!!

So what all does man do to pacify his/her conscience. What a sorry state of affairs..!! Almost disgusts me to be human. How we are ruled by our consicence - and to what extent people would go to be able to sleep at nights.
"I must make a stand" - why? because I am educated..!! And the educated ones are supposed to have a stand - I must express my approval or disapproval about the issue at hand. Hmm.. so what shall it be today. Lets see - what is in… What side are more of my people/friends on. After all - if I choose what most of my friends chose, then it would help daily dinner conversations rt!! And of course - will increase my "respect" in the group. Damn.. why did I not think of this before - this issue is the best thing that could have happened to my social billing. So where was I - ah… my own point of view… Yes. This is my path - oh wait - now can I beat the others to sending an e-mail or writing a blog post about it…
Spineless… Hypocrites. Your brain is dead - YOU are dead. Your existence is meaningless and a mere statistic.

Monday, May 12, 2008

Directionless

My dilemma is either my realization of something dark and cynical - or I'm just having a bad day… er month.
Every single soul has posed this question to him/herself at some point of their lives - what is the purpose of my existence? I'll go a step ahead - what is the purpose of all existence?
One of my favorite phrases of all time has been - "Don't sit around waiting for the greater meaning of life - or for any underlying truth - life is simple - it is now - this is it - and it's ticking away - going right by you - grasp it while you still can". So why is it today that I raise this question - am I not convinced with my own statement… I agree with it - what I am saying is completely truthful - but is definitely not the complete truth.
People find answer to this question in ridiculously fantastical things - God for instance - the whole story somewhat differently portrayed by each relegion - but eventually - it tries to answer the same question. Some are slightly less imaginative and go with the alien or science-fictional theories - and sometimes borrow images from the crazy sources like the Star Wars or the Matrix for instance.
"Borrow" is such an appropriate word here - these are all borrowed ideas - borrowed answers to rationalize our existence - to pass through each day - without questioning the need for your actions. And hats off to the ancient humans - these guys had the foresight to develop "rules" which would support this ignorance for millenia. Morals - relegious virtues - the path to god - to redemption - the sins - the mitzvahs - the truth - some went to the extent of defining the stages of life - "good" and "bad" choices. Everything to make one's life as predictable as possible. If we are all so brilliantly different from each other - DNA and all that - then why do we indulge in groupism - why do we borrow ideas - why have we been conditioned to think within patterns - sometimes patterns which counter other patterns - causing the momentary pleasure of difference.
So again - is it just me being cynical or is there something seriously wrong here…?